Episode 25: So Much Going On

In this episode, Sarah and Christine dive into their signature blend of humor and chaos as they introduce 'Mental Funny Bone: Becoming the Gaster Girls.' They humorously declare their lack of expertise in mental health, suggesting viewers call 988 for real help. They laugh about botox, eyelash removal, and quirky life moments, such as panhandling in Raleigh and comedic interactions with dinner guests. The conversation shifts to childhood memories, fan mail, and hilarious experiences at Century 3 Mall. They also discuss ADHD, Monica's potential eating disorder, and reading schedules, linking thoughts, thinking, and mindfulness in their mental health journey. The funny yet insightful banter covers everything from sponsorships to awkward Halloween memories and the upcoming '10 Percent Happier' book. They underscore the importance of shared vulnerability and open communication in their personal growth journey.

How to find mental health help when you're struggling.  https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists
https://washingtoncountyhumanservices.com/agencies/behavioral-health-developmental-services
https://www.alleghenycounty.us/Services/Human-Services-DHS/Publications/Resource-Guides
Apps -  Just search mental health where you get your apps.
EAP programs are a great place to look for help!!

Additional Resources (Sports Related):
https://globalsportmatters.com/health/2020/12/04/mental-health-resources-2/

Transcript

Chris 0:09

All right, go ahead.

Sarah 0:10

Hi. Hi, everybody. Welcome to the mental funny bone, becoming the gaster girls. I'm Sarah.

Chris 0:16

And I'm Christine. And once again, we don't know what we're doing.

Sarah 0:21

you need real help, you should go to one of our links or, text or call. What is it? 988.

Chris 0:28

988. There we go. That's what you should do. Don't listen to us for your mental health stuff.

Sarah 0:33

What you shouldn't do is watch on YouTube. Look at the non makeup face. What is this? What is happening right here?

Chris 0:43

You know how you fix that?

Sarah 0:45

Botox.

Chris 0:46

Botox. It's beautiful.

Sarah 0:49

Yeah. I just got my fake eyelashes removed so I could save money. So I'll just start that Botox up.

Chris 0:55

you can get a coupon. You can get a coupon for it eventually. my eye is twitching cause I might be a little sleepy. Also, I was just sitting outside here in, in Raleigh, North Carolina. in downtown Raleigh and, medical marijuana isn't even a thing here and I might be stoned.

Sarah 1:13

Number one, I don't understand why it's not a thing. Like I'm pretty much, I'm pretty sure the state makes a decent amount of money. From I just had to pay 50 to re register and now I have to pay another, I think I, now I think that's the doctor that's going to make money off of that because I have to pay them a hundred bucks to tell the state again that I need the medical marijuana. Oh, no, she's on mute because she's hacking. I could see her hacking.

Chris 1:38

I mean I feel better than I did before, but there are

Sarah 1:42

won't be going.

Chris 1:42

I won't sniff my way through this one, but there are also like weird, coughing things and it sounds like I'm trying to suppress laughter when really I am just laughing. and I'm

Sarah 1:52

didn't want, you didn't want me to think that you were laughing at me.

Chris 1:55

there was a, I took Olivia to dinner earlier today, like old people dinner at four thirty.

Sarah 2:01

Because that's the way to do it, man. No crowd. In and out. Home taking a nap by five.

Chris 2:07

Easy to find parking on the street,

Sarah 2:10

Home for the evening news and, then for the lottery numbers because I feel like that's always what grandma had to be home for was the lottery numbers. Sure. Sure.

Chris 2:18

was able to catch bowling for dollars on TV. So it's a beautiful thing. and there was a couple behind us and they were doing a special rally panhandling.

Sarah 2:28

Oh,

Chris 2:29

Yeah, they were asking people if they would like to donate to help save some birds. And I was like, what

Sarah 2:35

are they the birds? P. S. We're the birds. It's us.

Chris 2:39

in case you wanted to beat the birds. it's me.

Sarah 2:42

It's me. I'm right here. It's

Chris 2:43

I'm the

Sarah 2:44

me. I'm the bird.

Chris 2:45

And

Sarah 2:45

I'm going to do that tomorrow.

Chris 2:47

He asked somebody, excuse me, ma'am. And as soon as he said it, I cough laughed, not intending to laugh at him, but if they just come out,

Sarah 2:56

And it sounded as though you were laughing at him.

Chris 2:59

like I was mocking him for collecting, money for the Audubon society, do you want to help us save some birds? who, what?

Sarah 3:07

What if they really were trying to just save the birds?

Chris 3:10

they probably were. this is shit we don't hear in, Fredericktown. no one comes up to you and says, Hey, do you want to save some birds?

Sarah 3:17

Yeah. Yeah. Nobody cares about the bird. They're out shooting the birds.

Chris 3:20

we're trying to chase them away with a statue of a wolf or whatever.

Sarah 3:25

Yeah. Yeah.

Chris 3:25

the birds are pooping on things. We don't want them.

Sarah 3:29

Our neighbors in the back have a ton, like anything that has been said on TikTok that might tell you, that might say we'll scare the birds, our neighbors have around their pool right now. There's big owls, they're spinning things.

Chris 3:42

Oh my god.

Sarah 3:43

Yeah. Birds don't like that shit apparently.

Chris 3:45

All right. Let's let's get into this here. Fan mail. I would like to thank Dr. Crystal Pierce for sending us an email about working at Century 3 mall. So if you guys will recall last week, The week before, one recent episode, we were talking about the layout of Century Three Mall, and, Crystal worked at Corndog.

Sarah 4:10

Wow. Corn dog on a stick.

Chris 4:13

she sold hot dogs, and at that point, she was a vegetarian, which made me giggle a lot.

Sarah 4:20

She could eat like the crust on the corn dog, right?

Chris 4:23

I think once it touches the dog,

Sarah 4:25

Oh, it's just, yeah. I don't know. Crystal, let us know. Did you have some of the

Chris 4:31

Did you eat the

Sarah 4:32

on the outside? Oh,

Chris 4:34

stick in the batter and then just fry that?

Sarah 4:37

I would be fucking that shit up. I am so mad I didn't work there when I was in high school now. I would actually just be taking a spoon and eating that raw batter. I love cornbread raw batter.

Chris 4:48

How did she get worms? That's how. Can you even get, is that something just your mom would tell you so you wouldn't eat the batter? That you could

Sarah 4:55

I don't know. I don't know. Cause Mary says cause I let Owen she said that since he was little, cause I let Owen lick the, like I would leave extra batter in the bowl just so he could eat it raw and I, I would eat it raw as well. And she would say, you shouldn't do that. You're going to get the worms. And

Chris 5:11

of worms?

Sarah 5:12

I would go, okay, we won't. And then she'd leave. And I'd be like, you're on like the shit out of that. You'll poop those worms out. It'll be fine.

Chris 5:19

Where do they, what, how do the worms get in there? also when we were little I used to lick my finger and put it into the Kool Aid

Sarah 5:27

I didn't know where you were putting your finger. And I was really nervous.

Chris 5:30

It's a family show. It's a family show. Stop it.

Sarah 5:35

In the Kool Aid. Hell yeah, you did. You know what I did once that I regretted really badly? You know what I did that with?

Chris 5:42

Cocoa powder.

Sarah 5:43

bet! That's the worst when you're a kid and you're expecting to just taste chocolatey goodness. What is this? I'm gonna die. I'm

Chris 5:52

So bitter. So bitter.

Sarah 5:54

terrible. Terrible. Terrible.

Chris 5:57

But that's what your mom told me. I wasn't allowed to do that anymore because I was gonna get worms.

Sarah 6:02

and you listened. I was going to wait until I got worms.

Chris 6:05

I bet I won't.

Sarah 6:05

I bet I would look in the toilet for the worms after I went to the bathroom.

Chris 6:09

how else would you know you had them?

Sarah 6:12

When Owen was a baby and he had a stomach bug once. I was like, buddy, you just got a stomach bug. It's okay. And he'd go to the bathroom and he'd come out and be like, I think the stomach, I think the bug came out. Come look. I think he was looking in the shitter for the bug.

Chris 6:26

As you would. I'm

Sarah 6:28

made sense. It made sense. He was like, I think I pooped the bug out. Will you come and inspect it?

Chris 6:33

ew. sure. Yeah. Looks like it. I sound like I have tuberculosis, I think is what it is. I'm like Doc Holliday. I'm like Val Kilmer in Tombstone.

Sarah 6:44

what

Chris 6:44

Not as pretty. I'll be your Huckleberry. Do you remember when we went, speaking of worms, do you remember when we went to Tombstone?

Sarah 6:54

Yeah, we are high on the pixie sticks.

Chris 6:56

Oh my god,

Sarah 6:57

We already talked about this for sure.

Chris 6:59

I don't think we did.

Sarah 7:01

I swear we did. I think we've already discovered that I have a better memory than you do.

Chris 7:06

I don't know.

Sarah 7:07

Yes, we were high on the pixie sticks. And we also had, flavored, the flavored jelly beans. This is just when they started to put the picture of the jelly bean and the flavor on it. And we were, and daddy was guessing the flavor. What was the best flavor that he guessed?

Chris 7:21

It was a popcorn one and he said, that is urine soaked wood, opens up like a lot of questions. what are you eating urine soaked wood? Why?

Sarah 7:32

the best thing about our dad is serious as nobody's business. Yes, girls. Yeah, I've got it. I've got it. That one is urine soaked wood. Yep. and it's fact. It's fact.

Chris 7:44

and how are we not supposed to get the giggles?

Sarah 7:47

Yeah. And then he got pissed off at us because we wouldn't stop laughing. Stop saying funny shit.

Chris 7:53

You create a monster.

Sarah 7:55

You started it, dad. You started it.

Chris 7:58

Oh my gosh. all right, fan mail. Do you have any other fan mail? I feel like I've seen some, like someone told us we were awesome.

Sarah 8:06

don't have a fan mail per se. I think I have a future fan. I'm going to respond to him and let him know I am mentioning him in this next episode, in this episode. my friend from grade school and high school. Gerald P. I'm pretty sure I could say his last name because I'm not sure how many friends I have named Gerald. But anyway, yeah, so I, Gerald sent me a message on Instagram and I was like, Hey, we got to get together in between all the shit I've going on. Let's think about October. And he responded and said, podcasting, question. Tell me more. So obviously he didn't know about the podcast.

Chris 8:43

How?

Sarah 8:44

So I don't know. So

Chris 8:45

are there people that don't know?

Sarah 8:47

I sent him the link and his response is, I have a rule and that rule is if one of them, if my friend is doing a podcast and the first episode title I see is big blue balls, I'm fucking hitting that subscribe button. So welcome, Gerald, welcome to the funny boner community. We're glad to have you. We hope you'll stick around for at least this whole episode. And, yeah, we'll continue to try to come up with great jazzy names, like blue balls. speaking of blue balls,

Chris 9:19

Is this about Noah?

Sarah 9:20

I found this today. Do you see it? I can't find my camera.

Chris 9:25

I'm gonna, I'm gonna tell the people what it is. Because they can't see it. Sarah is holding up a bag of candy. there are a hundred, pieces of candy. They're small. and the name of the candy is Tasty Dicks.

Sarah 9:39

Yeah,

Chris 9:40

shaped like penises

Sarah 9:42

they're

Chris 9:43

with, balls attached.

Sarah 9:44

Yeah. They're little baby dicks. I'm holding it by its head so you could see the balls

Chris 9:49

can you turn it upside down?

Sarah 9:51

There you go. I can turn it any way I want it and then I can eat it. Eat a dick. now

Chris 9:55

a bag of

Sarah 9:56

I have them? Exactly. Because one of Noah's coworkers wrapped these up for a Christmas gift and said, for Christmas, I bought you a bag of dicks.

Chris 10:06

it a white elephant? or were they like, Hey buddy, you and I are tight. Here's what I got you. I know you like the cock. So here's a bag of dicks.

Sarah 10:17

I'm, I think there was a little bit of a joke behind it. I don't know. I can't talk because I've got a dick in my mouth.

Chris 10:22

Stop it.

Sarah 10:23

Sorry, mom.

Chris 10:24

I'm trying not to do editing this week.

Sarah 10:28

Okay, I'll stop.

Chris 10:29

We might, I think I did. I said a lot of bad things. somebody was giving me feedback. Somebody was telling me that they'd listened to the, she's, she has sucked all the outside candy off of it. Now she's just sticking it out between her lips. I can't, she's just, we're done. Not talking about it anymore. I forget who told me this and I might have mentioned it last week, but someone was like, hey, I listened to an episode of your podcast and your sister swears a lot.

Sarah 10:59

Meanwhile, I think I've been doing really good with it. That

Chris 11:02

I was like, oh, thank you?

Sarah 11:04

my next question. Was that a good thing or a bad thing?

Chris 11:07

I'm not sure because that was the feedback was, hey, I listened to an episode of your podcast and Your sister swears a lot, but thank

Sarah 11:17

thank you. You're welcome. I don't,

Chris 11:19

I don't know what to say when people compliment it. And I definitely don't know what to say when people don't compliment it.

Sarah 11:25

yeah, I don't

Chris 11:27

I was like, you know what else you can do is just not say anything. You can just be quiet about

Sarah 11:32

if you don't like me swearing so much, then don't listen and then don't say anything to me about it. That's fine. feel free to say it, really say it to me. I'm not going to fucking change. In fact, I'll probably fucking swear more. Yeah.

Chris 11:46

in this episode. So

Sarah 11:48

Yeah.

Chris 11:49

going to be a rough one. yeah. So I think that was fan mail. I listened to an episode of your podcast and your sister

Sarah 11:55

sister swears a lot. we need, I have a request for our listeners. Hold on. Let me spit this out.

Chris 12:01

Get the cock out of your mouth.

Sarah 12:02

Let me get the C and B out. I would like to, I would like the listeners and I feel like Tommy B is going to be the one to help us out here and I feel like he may have already given us some suggestions. I got to go through some old things. we need a tagline because I want to get some t shirts made.

Chris 12:17

I think bumping potatoes was, Tommy B's idea for the t shirts.

Sarah 12:21

I like the bumping potatoes. Now we need an illustration for that.

Chris 12:26

God, why do you add, why do you put it out there? Okay, so for those of you guys who might not be caught up or might be listening backwards, I don't know, I don't know how everyone does it. I usually start at the beginning and go to the most recent one, but maybe some people start at the most recent one and go back. there was a, there was an episode, Early on where Sarah and I talked about going to the ballet and the boys at the ballet had,

Sarah 12:48

Potatoes in their pants.

Chris 12:50

potatoes in their pants and they were dancing in such a way that the potatoes were bumping. Each other, like in that fashion, and

Sarah 12:59

noise.

Chris 13:00

we, this might be our best episode ever.

Sarah 13:02

I can't stop laughing. I'm going to watch this one on YouTube. Just watch this. Oh,

Chris 13:07

I'll cut that snorting out. but yeah, so that's the backstory there. So we were talking about bumping potatoes and, Tom was gonna make a t shirt or something and I'm, yeah, we should get back to that.

Sarah 13:20

Yeah. I want to, I do want to get a t shirt made. some t shirts made I've, some people will, will actually buy them. I've heard. some people have told me they'll buy them and I was thinking we can even do some extra stuff. We can maybe put a little March 4th logo on there. We could put a little Michael's Ovation logo on there and maybe, we give each of them a little bit of money, like we're going to make approximately 5

Chris 13:44

we can give each of them 2.

Sarah 13:45

them 2 and we'll keep a dollar for ourselves.

Chris 13:49

What are we going to do with all that? Do you think we can buy another bag of dicks with it? How much was a bag of dicks?

Sarah 13:55

I imagine a bag of colorful dicks.

Chris 13:57

Oh, I forgot to mention they were very colorful.

Sarah 14:00

Yeah, it's gonna be that's we're

Chris 14:01

Not skin colored colorful, but like red and yellow and candy colored.

Sarah 14:06

blue

Chris 14:07

I would, it would be

Sarah 14:08

We're gonna have to sell two shirts to get a bag of dicks I think

Chris 14:12

it would be so much better if the bag of dicks was flesh colored.

Sarah 14:15

no

Chris 14:16

different tones, all of it inclusive,

Sarah 14:19

we like it. We like it. We're not gonna discriminate in our bag of dicks.

Chris 14:23

right? Exactly. also, talking about, March 4th and Michael's ovation. I want to put it out there that, your friends at, The mental funny bone would like to sponsor things So if you have a walk or you have something that you're passionate about listeners, hit us up because we would like to We would like to sponsor things and we just don't we just don't know what because sarah and I have so much money Independently

Sarah 14:48

I was just going to say, I was going to offer that we sponsored one of the soccer practice shirts, but then I was in charge of ordering the shirts and saw how much they were. And I very quickly decided we weren't going to sponsor a shirt.

Chris 15:01

we'll just do something small Do you have something where we could just get like we don't have to put our logo on it But maybe just

Sarah 15:06

Just our

Chris 15:07

half our name

Sarah 15:08

Like we need to

Chris 15:08

not even the whole name,

Sarah 15:10

We could just

Chris 15:10

Funny Bone.

Sarah 15:11

We could just do that. Can we buy

Chris 15:13

I like it, yeah.

Sarah 15:14

I'll buy three letters.

Chris 15:15

Thanks, Pat. I'd like to buy a vowel.

Sarah 15:18

Oh no, Pat's gone! Thanks, Ryan. Ryan Seacrest is now the new Pat Sajak.

Chris 15:23

How many Vanna Whites do you think there have been?

Sarah 15:26

There's one. There's only one Vanna White.

Chris 15:29

I don't know. I

Sarah 15:30

this a conspiracy theory?

Chris 15:32

is it a conspiracy if it's actually happening?

Sarah 15:35

I'm fairly certain that everybody believes in the conspiracy theories. Okay, we're gonna move on. Next

Chris 15:41

Okay, weekly

Sarah 15:43

eating cats and dogs and shit and I just can't. I can't. I just can't. Oh no, she disappeared. Oh, I thought you were Oh, hello. I see you. I don't know. Oh, yeah, it does. You went all black there. You disappeared. all you're gonna be able to hear is me unscrewing and putting the Gatorade lid back on. This flavor of Gatorade is the worst. Just in case anybody is wonder No, it's not the worst. It's not my favorite. This is Watermelon Splash. Bleh. The only other flavor I had to choose from was, Apple something and that was double bleh. what's going on there, Christine? You're muted. And I'm trying to read your lips, but now you're fuzzy, so I can't even see your lips. Hold on. Oh, no. Oh, no. your fun microphone? this one that I have in front of me that has the lights on it? Oh, no. Why is it broken? Oh, no. This

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 16:33

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riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 16:34

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riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 16:35

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riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 16:38

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riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 16:41

Everything's fine.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 16:42

Okay.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 16:44

Okay, Gerald Patch sent you an email while we were talking.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 16:47

Yeah. He sent me a note on, on the Insta. And he listened to the most recent episode and he said, enjoyed it. When you started talking about Sentra 3, I was locked in. And the whole time you were talking about the food court, I'm literally screaming. Talk about the fucking chocolate covered frozen bananas.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 17:03

I, I have a vague memory, but I don't know where you would buy the frozen chocolate covered banana. was it at the Nuthouse?

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 17:11

I feel like I know too. that you're saying it, I feel like I remembered them, but.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 17:16

were they were on a

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 17:17

to him right now. I don't remember. See, that's, I do remember the sticked bananas because they were cut off, weren't they? They were cut off. It wasn't like the whole banana. They were cut off at

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 17:26

it was like half a banana. Half a banana. Was it at the ice cream place? if your mom hated you, she wouldn't buy you ice cream, she'd get you a frozen banana.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 17:35

They had Superman ice cream there, didn't they?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 17:37

They had bubblegum ice cream, it was my go to.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 17:40

That's what it was! It was the bubblegum ice cream.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 17:43

Loved it. That little ball of bubblegum would be at the bottom of the cone. I'm making that up.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 17:49

No, that was on the, that was the, the ice cream man.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 17:52

Oh, yes, no, yeah.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 17:54

of bubblegum at the bottom of it.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 17:56

Can I have a quarter? Can I have a quarter? He's coming! Mom! You're yelling through the door because it's locked.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 18:02

ha. Locked out.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 18:04

Let me in! I want to grab my bag of change. Alright, stop emailing, Gerald P. and talk to me.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 18:11

Okay.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 18:12

do you remember the,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 18:14

remember?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 18:15

Oh wait, before we go on, weekly catch up corner. So we've been meeting so many people. We've been talking to so many different people. they're

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 18:24

Okay. Okay.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 18:24

Yeah, it's the big city here. there was a Like a bulldozer outside earlier today. Don't try to distract me we've been meeting so many people and It feels like everybody we meet is somebody that we knew in high school and was in a gang Like, like Jackie and Ed were in the Elizabeth gang, and then we talked to the Michael's Ovation team, and that's Laurie Black, and she was in a, she lived on Oak Hill with us, but she was hanging out, she went through a rebellious phase, and she was hanging out with those kids at Blaine Hill, and she was in a Blaine Hill gang. everyone's in a gang. I don't remember being in a gang.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 19:04

I think what is happening is you're making up the gangs and just putting people in them as we see them.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 19:09

Could be. Could be. Yeah. Yeah, I'm

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 19:13

Let's, hey, while we're at it, we're gonna throw Gerald into the St. Michael's gang.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 19:17

Oh, did we have a

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 19:18

I was a part of that one. I think I was, I don't think we let you in.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 19:21

No, probably not. I was at, I had to go to, I had to go to special, advanced education classes on a bus from St. Michael's. Actually, I think that Gerald was also in my special education gang.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 19:35

he was the smartest kid in our class. He won the spelling bee. And then later in life, that came in super handy because he came over the one time and we were playing, Scattergories. And the one thing you had to be able to spell words backwards. And so that was always his thing and he would go, but yeah,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 19:51

Amazing. Yeah. yeah, apparently we were in a gang, St. Michael's, St. Michael's Elementary Gang.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 19:57

Yeah, I like it.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 19:58

Alright. Also, there's so much travel, like I am on a plane, in a car, I might take a train later just to round everything out. I have not been on a boat, but,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 20:10

trains, and automobiles.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 20:12

I was in very southern West Virginia yeah. yeah. this weekend, I went on the Hatfield and McCoy trails, which is just a wide expanse of ATV trails. So we took our side by side with a bunch of other Fayette County rednecks and we went down to, to the Hatfield and McCoy trails and it was very dusty.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 20:37

I feel like Hatfield and McCoy is something I should know.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 20:40

It was a dispute between two rival families in West Virginia slash

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 20:46

Oh, so this is like a legit story, like history story. It's not like Dukes of Hazzard.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 20:52

no, similar, same idea, same family of Frednecks. It was so much fun. I've never been that covered in dirt in my entire life. And I played a sport where you roll around in the mud, essentially, sometimes.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 21:08

I'm so happy. I'm so glad for you. That sounds

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 21:12

it was a blast. I had, there was dirt in my ear and how you can't see your own ears, but the, one of the guys

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 21:21

to get one of those things that you, one of those camera

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 21:25

like a camera.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 21:26

Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 21:27

no, because we, one of our companions was like, I'm going to show you something that's really going to gross you out. And he took a picture of my ear and I was like,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 21:35

Yeah. Cool.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 21:35

we have to go back to the house so I can wash my ear. the amount of dirt in my hair was amazing.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 21:44

I thought you were going to get a GoPro for this.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 21:47

It's funny because I spent a lot of the time with my eyes closed. With my hands over my eyes like you know how roller coasters are scary, and I still like them This is scary, but in a very I might get hurt kind of way I

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 22:05

going to do this ever. No.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 22:08

Mean I'll have to show you some in the video, but The I was like this isn't a trail What this isn't a trail? This is a stream. Why are we in it? there was one part where it's just a giant mud hole and everyone loves it. They're like, this is the funnest thing. This is the beginning of beer can alley. And I'm like, I've been hearing about it for months. Here we are. And what would the idea is you get your little buggy going really fast and then you like skim across the top of a giant mud puddle. we can't do that because ours is heavy. And there were several times where I had to remind David that this toy that we have cost as much as my car.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 22:51

Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 22:52

do not drive across that mud puddle and get it wet.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 22:56

Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 22:58

don't do that. but there were people in

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 23:01

I can think of?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 23:02

what Hatfields and McCoy is

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 23:04

no, you guys going through water and coming out with you coming out with a big fucking leech on your face. I don't know why. Yeah,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 23:15

I, and I had to explain to people that we were with that I pretended to like the outdoors because I thought David was cute.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 23:25

yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 23:26

I was like, this is a ruse that

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 23:28

This is why you really should, things should go backwards or something. I feel like you shouldn't really date someone until you're like our age and you can be like, no, I'm over that acting like I like shit.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 23:39

I don't like it. And when we bought this thing in April, I was like, all right, here's the deal. I don't want to be a wet, cold, or dirty. So if you could arrange that would be fantastic.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 23:50

But it turns out you like it

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 23:52

I was wet, cold, and dirty all at the same time. There was mud, mud had splashed up like a forest water had once again, gone right into my eyes. I'm pretty sure I had dysentery again.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 24:05

God.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 24:05

But it was a blast. I had so much fun. just great people that we went with and everyone just got along and no one was angry or upset and,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 24:15

that's always the best.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 24:17

we stopped at one place, which was like Flagpole Hill, Flag, Flaggle Rock,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 24:22

Flagler Rock. I love that place. Are there dozers everywhere? Did you meet the trash heap?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 24:28

you stop, you have to take your thing up like a hill that looks like this, like a 90 degree hill. Like I'm pretty sure we almost tipped over backwards cause it was upside down. I was like, that was exciting. They're like, Oh, that's not the exciting part. The exciting part is you have to climb up this rock and then you can see the flagpole. And I was like, Where's the path? There's Oh, there's no path. You just scale the rock.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 24:52

No.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 24:52

I was like, I'm wearing flip flops. They're like, Oh, take them off. So legit in the hills of West Virginia, just like a Hatfield and a McCoy, I took my shoes off and scampered up a rock, scampered in the forest,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 25:09

No.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 25:10

like a, like a person that likes the outdoors.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 25:13

No.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 25:14

Like a spider

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 25:15

proud of you though. That's awesome. And you liked it. So maybe you, now you're an outdoorsy person. Who knew?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 25:20

I don't know. I was also very happy to get back to someplace where, I could take a hot shower.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 25:25

and then go back to like normal

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 25:28

right,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 25:29

where we shower and have plumbing and shit.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 25:31

and all along the trails are like little restaurants that you can eat at. So it's not it's not like you're out,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 25:38

so it's my kind of wilderness. but I wouldn't want to be in that trap.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 25:42

it was fun. We'll I enjoyed it. I'm really happy that they, that those guys asked us to go along. Nice

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 25:47

Awesome. I'm glad.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 25:49

Yep. also met a lady named Mildred.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 25:52

Is she your age?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 25:53

Yeah,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 25:54

You know what that means. You're old. Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 25:58

I knew it. I knew it. so we did that and definitely I think a GoPro is necessary because as we do like dangerous things or scary things or run over rocks or the buggy starts tipping one way or the other, my face must do incredible

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 26:10

Yeah. That's what I'm saying. I want to see, I want to see what's going on here. Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 26:15

you guys will have to check out the YouTube video. Cause I just made two real fun faces.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 26:19

Yes.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 26:21

All right. What's up? What are we doing next year? Gangs of Elizabeth. Oh, Since we were talking about Gangs of Elizabeth, I started thinking about the Halloween parade that they had in downtown Elizabeth.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 26:32

Yes.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 26:32

I don't know if you remember because you were pretty young. I think we did it up until you were in like sixth grade.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 26:37

Yeah, I vaguely remember it, I,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 26:45

Like it was

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 26:45

when I remember it, I feel like I remember my biggest memory of this is, this might not even be the Elizabeth parade. I feel like it has to be though. Cause I feel like it was in front of the Elizabeth elementary school and it's a picture. You were dressed up as a heart. Like a box of chocolates.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 27:03

I think you're meshing every Halloween smashed into one.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 27:08

maybe

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 27:09

I was a box, I was a box of chocolates when I was like two. Because it was an actual box of chocolates. Like that someone had gotten for your mother. No?

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 27:19

you're making that up now.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 27:22

I'm pretty

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 27:22

No, cause Billy Leogas was, I swear, Billy Leogas was Bayou. We need to find the, we need to find the album.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 27:30

I don't know, cause now I remember Billy Leogas dressed like a clown, but I think that was in Laurie Black's pictures. It's, I don't know, it's, cause I was a witch and Billy Leogas was a clown,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 27:40

Okay. But Billy Leogas was still, I was still there. We need to find, we need to find the pictures. Where are the pictures?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 27:46

that Laurie sent us,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 27:47

No. Our pictures. Growing

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 27:49

our, they have to be at your parents house.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 27:52

Mom, we need the pictures. Bring out the pictures.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 27:56

can you tell us if Sarah participated in the Elizabeth, Halloween parade?

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 28:00

I know I did, but I don't really remember. I don't, I think it's one of those that maybe there's a memory and that's going to come up, but I really just remember a picture of a parade and a box of chocolates.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 28:11

there's a lot of uncertainty with this memory because I had, I was a punk for one of them and I had like spiky hair and I, for some reason, remember us lining up by grade, but that wouldn't make any sense because I didn't, I didn't, we didn't go to school with those guys, like

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 28:30

but maybe they just wanted to group our ages together. I don't know

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 28:34

yeah. And I don't think there were prizes. I never won a prize, I don't know

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 28:38

candy? Was there candy being thrown from the firetruck?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 28:42

I don't know. I can't remember. I just remember that I was super excited to do it every year and also just as an an embarrassing story when we got to seventh grade And we had to go to junior high on halloween. I was sure we were having a halloween party in seventh grade

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 29:02

Like at school Okay, yeah

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 29:06

then, and it was fun because there were like cupcakes

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 29:09

Yeah, it was a party. It was a school party. Yeah

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 29:13

and like around one o'clock, I was like, they should be letting us out of class pretty soon. Cause I got my costume in my locker.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 29:20

Yeah, they don't.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 29:20

And I started like looking around at the other kids. I'm like, Hey, are we doing this or

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 29:25

Okay, we getting dressed up or what man?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 29:29

I brought my, also. this is epic. Just unlocking a memory right now. I took a gun to school. I was a pirate. In elementary school. I was a pirate in 5th grade maybe?

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 29:43

And you took an actual gun? You took an

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 29:45

I took an actual gun to school and people were like, that's so cool. Yeah.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 29:50

first of all.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 29:51

Yeah, it was one that daddy had made. Okay. Do you know the one I'm talking about? It was like a, it was like a, an old timey handgun.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 30:00

Yeah. He made, he put some guns together. I remember him working in the garage on them.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 30:05

It went with my costume, so I took it to school and no one complained.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 30:10

Oh, why would you?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 30:11

Perfectly normal.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 30:12

went with your costume and. things were a little bit different. Yeah. yeah. And our parents let you, wow.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 30:20

and everybody was cool with it. Not only your parents, like I'm sure I had it out on a desk in Mr. Lorenzi's class. Spinning it on my finger. It was a different time kids. It was a different time. no one thought that was odd or maybe I shouldn't have a firearm in school.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 30:43

Did anybody check if it was loaded?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 30:45

I'm sure somebody did. Now I was thinking like maybe your dad checked, but I doubt it. Cause I'm going to say they might not have known.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 30:54

I honestly, I'm flabbergasted. Even in 1984, I'm flabbergasted by this.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 30:59

I took a gun to school.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 31:01

All right. All right.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 31:03

All right. let's talk. let's talk some mental health stuff. so Dan Harris. has a website that you can subscribe to. So I signed us both up last week.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 31:15

I like it.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 31:16

you can gift a subscription. You can have a group subscription, which is what we did. And then, if you don't, can't, don't want to pay for it, you can, you can not pay for it. So you can,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 31:31

when you signed us up, should I have something in my email?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 31:34

I'm still having a hard time. I'm still having a hard time figuring out whether or not I actually paid for something. Cause I don't see the charges on my credit card. so

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 31:44

kinks, Dan.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 31:45

working out the kinks, working out the kinks, I'm on board. I definitely want to do it. And, it sounded really exciting when he was talking about it.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 31:53

going to follow him. so Dan, when you listen to this episode, if you could just give us a little, give us an email, gastrogirls at gmail. com. That would be great. I did have a couple of notes here before we go on. I'm sorry that I forgot. one is our business cards.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 32:10

Yeah.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 32:11

I used the wrong logo.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 32:12

What did you do? Oh, I see it now.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 32:16

Do you see it now?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 32:17

Yeah.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 32:18

Okay, I just saw that today. I was like, wait a second.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 32:21

That's two words, not one word.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 32:23

Yeah. Yeah. gave them to a lot of people. So whatever.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 32:27

The good news is, everything on that business card is so

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 32:30

So fucking

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 32:31

going to notice.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 32:33

Yeah. Nobody's No, but everybody's looking at those and throwing them right in the fucking trash. Too many words. Too many

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 32:40

handed a couple of them out last week and they were like, Oh, that writing is tiny. I'm like, Just take a picture of it with your phone and do that thing that old people do.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 32:49

Yeah. My sister made them. Just blame them. Blame it on me. Yeah. We definitely need to read, do a little redesign. I don't know why I felt like that we needed to put the whole explanation. I don't know. I believe that you approved them. So fuck off.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 33:02

you caught me at a busy time and I was like, don't give a shit. Looks great.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 33:05

And this is what happens when you don't give a

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 33:07

Don't give a shit. Yeah. Sorry. that's my bad. That's my

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 33:11

Yeah. Yeah. So we'll need to, we'll need to do something about those.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 33:15

Yes. Yes, we will. What's the book? Don't Believe Everything You Think.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 33:19

Have you read it?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 33:20

I have listened to 80 percent of it.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 33:23

Ooh, that's more than I've read.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 33:25

See? You start us off. Tell us about it.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 33:28

I read it last week though, so I forget.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 33:31

Look up the table of contents. You know who read it? Chad.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 33:34

Oh, sometimes I don't trust Chad because I put some shit in Chad the one day when we were doing a subtle art of not giving a fuck. And I was like, Hey, Chad, give me a synopsis of chapter whatever. And it looked great. It looked awesome. Like it looked like he knew what the fuck he was talking about, but I actually read that chapter. And I was like, that's, There were several things in there that were never mentioned in that chapter. So kids, just beware if you're trying to use chat GPT, I think he's out to fuck you over. He's out to fuck you over. So the one thing I do remember is the difference between, thoughts and thinking. Do you remember this from the beginning of the book?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 34:15

Thoughts aren't reality. is reality.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 34:18

Yes. So

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 34:19

these things that meander through your head every once in a while, that tell you should shut up because you don't know anything. Not real. Thinking deeply about something. Real.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 34:30

Yeah, so like thoughts are a noun. Thinking, on the other hand, is the act of thinking about the thoughts. This takes a significant amount of energy, effort, and willpower.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 34:42

Yes. Yes, thinking, different than being like, shut up dummy. And I like how everything in here is tied to suffering. So I think this book is a nice segue to 10 percent Happier, right? Because we're going to, we're going to start talking a lot of Buddhist shit in 10 percent Happier. Dunsky,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 35:05

scheduling and getting all the things done that I need to get done because at 8 p. m. My brain is just My brain doesn't want to do it anymore and like I read after that but I read nonsense books Like I can't read anything that I have. Yeah that I have to keep in there So I have to figure out I've got to put together a reading schedule because I'll be honest with you I didn't even finish atomic habits.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 35:31

you know what might help you out? If you have the Adams app,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 35:35

I do and I still haven't done anything with it.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 35:39

right, you know what you can do on the Adams app between me and you can give yourself an accountability partner. So when I'm like, Hey, I didn't do any yoga this week. I can be like, I'm so surprised you don't burp more often. I'm surprised that wasn't feedback. Like she's gross. yeah. Why don't you.

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swears

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 35:58

Why don't you set up, why don't you set up a little habit, at four o'clock? a specific time?

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 36:04

gonna, I'm gonna. And the thing is also, here's the thing I struggle from is that I read really slow. Like when I have to retain and comprehend shit, I read a lot slower than I read Nonsense book because the nonsense books, I could skip over pages and still figure out what's going on. Like I don't read all those words. It's, I can skim through them pretty quick, but especially getting into 10 percent happier. Like I want to read, I want to act yeah, I need to commit to our reading more than what I have been. And I feel like we've been skimming over the reading stuff lately. So I've been able to get away with it, but 10 percent happier. Like I really want.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 36:44

and I'm really nice about it. Like, when you call me and you're like, hey, I didn't read it, I'm like, it's okay. It's okay. Instead of being like, you really need to read this shit.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 36:54

Yeah. So you need to tell me to get my shit together and you're going to kick me off the podcast if I don't read. I have to do

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 37:00

Nobody wants that. nobody wants to kick you off the podcast, but I think that looking at Atomic Habits, like that was a good book, but you could also figure it out in three episodes. So we drag that one out a little bit. and a lot of it was because we had some other stuff going on. School started, we had fleas, like a whole ton of shit was happening in August and September. Now we got to get our act together. Cause it's coming up on spooky season and it's time. It's time for us to get our shit together. Yeah. So looking at this book. because you did read it and I'm gonna give you credit for it. this book is a lot about how thinking and suffering or thoughts and suffering go together. you just let your thoughts run wild without being mindful about them. Without doing the thinking part. thoughts will come in and be like, You're not doing it right. What are you even trying to do? Why are you bothering? Like those kinds of negative thoughts will come in. you've gained four pounds this week and you're obviously a piece of shit who can't control her appetite.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 38:08

that's the thinking though, right? The thought is the actual, the thought is the noun of it. So the thought is

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 38:13

I'm a dumb ass.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 38:15

And then

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 38:15

I'm a bad

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 38:16

is where you dig into it and dig into it and dig into it.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 38:20

Like

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 38:20

thinking is the bad, the really going far.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 38:25

the thought is, you're a lazy piece of shit. that's the thought that goes through. oh no, I gained four pounds. You're a lazy piece of shit. That's the thought that comes,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 38:34

Oh, I thought the thought, I'm very confused then. Because I thought the thinking was the bad thing. The thinking is that,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 38:41

Maybe I have it

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 38:41

go too deep Like the thought like you're thinking and you're like, oh, yeah So the thought in your head is I gained four pounds and then the thinking is wow, I gained four pounds. I'm a piece of shit I'm a fat piece of shit. Like the thinking is the bad part of it

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 38:56

overthinking, negative thought loops, those things are bad. Like the thought is what it what a piece of shit and then you're like, right? I am a piece of shit I can't even control what I'm eating. I know that I don't need to eat all that and yet I sit here shoving candy dicks in my mouth and

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 39:15

they're good though

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 39:16

Believing all those thoughts I think is the trick like Being able to stop that train like at your piece of shit. No, I'm not obviously I'm not a piece of shit I'm a nice person with a lot of positive qualities and four pounds in the grand scheme of things is nothing and Just because I weigh four pounds more now than I did last week doesn't mean that I have to keep gaining four pounds every week Until I'm a hundred or two hundred and eight pounds

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 39:46

So this is the book you Now that I'm thinking about it, that had, he started with a story about the monk who couldn't find a place to meditate. And here's what, that is so difficult for me because the monk finally figured it out. Like he was letting everything irritate him. That's why he couldn't find. The space, it wasn't the space around him. It was him letting everything irritate him. But this is hard shit. Just thinking in just that specific context, not even thinking about like the big meeting behind that story, just thinking about that story in general, like I think about how I was at a soccer game on Monday and was super irritated because the guy two rows back from me and to the left. And I sit by myself, again I sit by myself, but this random guy was like close enough that I could hear him chewing his gum. Yet, I have no ability to stop myself from getting irritated at that. I'm like, really dude?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 40:45

Yeah, that's the whole trick to all of this is being able to separate the thoughts from the real.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 40:51

so hard. It's so hard.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 40:54

Olivia called me yesterday while I was driving down here and the reason I drove was so I could stop at one of her soccer games on the trip down, hang out with her for a couple of days, go to my conference, and then drive back and catch a soccer game on my way back. Olivia calls me and she's hey, that soccer game's canceled. And then, Like not even stopping or pausing. She's now I don't know what to do. I was like, what are you talking about? I'm like, you have the whole day free. So she's but I already made up my schedule. I already made up what I was gonna do. Yes.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 41:30

I have something to share with you.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 41:32

Oh, no.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 41:34

I'm just, I'm going to put this here. I don't know, you probably can't see it. I'll have to text it to you, but, this is something I saw on Instagram and I was like, I feel like this is me, but I feel like it's more so my sister. why is this do this? Oh, you, it's at Mustangs. Yep. All right. It's not it. I'll have to send it to you, but it's all about ADHD and it starts out. Like the guy's do you have everything you need? And she's Oh, I'm sure I don't, but I, we're just going to go with it and see what happens. I've already wasted so much time. it just goes through every little thing, She's folding clothes and he's Oh, you're folding clothes. And he's yeah. And she goes, yeah, remember I told you I had those three super important things I needed to get done today. I've decided I'm going to fold clothes instead.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 42:22

Great.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 42:22

And like all those little things I have to send it to you. Cause it's spot on.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 42:28

It's hysterical. Yeah, so Liv is Now I don't know what to do. And I'm like, I think you might be overthinking it. Why don't you just go? She's I don't know if I should run now. I'm not worried about my biology exam on Thursday yet, but I probably should be. I'm like, why don't you study? She's I can't, not yet.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 42:47

Yeah. Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 42:48

called her today. She's I can't hang out with you. I'm so worried about it now. and I was like, oh my gosh, you're upset. I'm driving in the wrong direction. I had to go this way to get to the game and I should have gone this way to get to Raleigh. So it took me like an extra two hours to get here. it did, it was very painful, but yeah, Olivia was like, I can't quit thinking about the thing that should have happened, which was the game. That's the thing that should have happened and it didn't happen. And now what am I gonna do? And I can't quit thinking about what didn't happen. yep. These are the things that we have to, take a breath and be like a little bit mindful about. It does suck. also I have 1100 projects halfway started at work. So instead of finishing one of them with the three hours I had this afternoon, unexpectedly, I decided it was way more important for me to clean my email up.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 43:38

I still feel like that's valid

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 43:40

It isn't.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 43:41

because I guarantee your email is a cluster fuck.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 43:44

a piece of shit. It is. There are like 234 unread emails in there. I have no idea if they're important or not.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 43:51

and it amazes me like that. I don't know how you can, that I would be having heart palpitations like nobody's business.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 43:59

Yep. I don't think about them because I don't look at them. So I don't think about them. I think about other

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 44:05

at them? How do you not have your email open all the time

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 44:07

Because I look at it when it comes in, I'm like, do I need to take an action on that? No. Fuck you email. oh, that one I do need to take an action on. I'll flag it. So the unread ones I don't Like I see the subject line. I'm like, that's not me. I'm not doing anything with that.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 44:22

file it and get it out of the way?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 44:24

And that is like the point today was I really need to get this email cleaned up because I feel like I might be missing something, even though I'm pretty sure I'm not. Instead of doing the thing I was supposed to be doing, I did something completely different that wasn't even on the list.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 44:40

Yeah, but I feel like it's, it's not like you cleaned your Airbnb.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 44:45

I did not know.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 44:46

That's what I was getting ready for you to say. And I was going to be like, yeah, Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 44:51

right? no. Instead of doing the projects, like there's an email that needs to go out tonight that I haven't written yet.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 44:57

Oh, that's going to have to wait until you get this thing all wrapped up and ready to upload.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 45:02

right. Exactly. Exactly.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 45:05

Cause we should mention that tomorrow's Thursday and tomorrow's release day, we're a little bit behind. It's currently

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 45:11

just like always,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 45:13

just a little worse this time.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 45:16

my God, heaven

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 45:18

we both thought it was Tuesday this morning,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 45:20

Absolute best part of all of it. Alright, back to the book. Back to the book. Yeah, stopping those thought patterns is hard, but I think that's where the meditation piece comes in. your meditation piece is the training part. training your brain to slow down and be like, hey thought, Nice to see you. I'm definitely not a piece of shit. Go on your merry way my friend instead of spiraling about five what happens if I gain three pounds next week? What happens if I gain two? like instead of going Immediately to the worst thing that could possibly happen which would be me weighing 108 or 208 pounds again like being able to be

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 45:57

me so nervous.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 45:58

Stop it. this is why the book is good. Like Dan Harris kind of, and reading Dan Harris's book is a lot about his memoir, here's how he got to be a journalist. Here's how he got overseas. Here's how he recognized that maybe he wasn't living his best life. And here's how he started to meditate. And here's how he was like, fuck this meditation. This isn't for me. I can't do it. I hate it. And how he kind of baby stepped his way through it. So you and Dan

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 46:28

I'm going to need.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 46:30

at the beginning of this book sound a lot alike. So

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 46:33

like me and Dan Harris are, I love him. I just love him.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 46:37

you're the same person, except he's very wealthy and popular.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 46:42

He's super smart.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 46:44

I don't know.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 46:45

knows geography.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 46:47

I don't

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 46:47

very super successful and,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 46:50

I think he had some advantages.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 46:54

yeah, I feel like he is Yeah, we're, yeah. I'm very much looking forward to finally reading this book.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 47:00

he has panic attacks on planes

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 47:03

Yeah, he does. He

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 47:04

even after all this meditation and mindfulness, like BS, he still has panic attacks on

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 47:09

still has panic attacks. That thing on face, the, was it on Facebook, the post he put about the panic attack? oh my god, that's me. It's so me. yeah, I'm super excited to read this book. I, even talking about meditation makes my hands sweat,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 47:26

You're going to

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 47:26

and I'm, really, I'm really pushing, like I'm trying to push that bad thinking out of the way. And that's I keep thinking not for me. Like I'm there. I'm not going to be able to meditate.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 47:40

can do it. Everybody

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 47:41

that's what I know I can do. I

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 47:43

if I can do yoga. You can meditate,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 47:47

think that's valid. Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 47:48

If I can get my ass into a downward dog without falling over, which happens still sometimes,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 47:53

I tried yoga a couple of times. corpse pose was maybe my favorite or child's

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 47:59

it's just laying on your back.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 48:01

exactly. Corpse pose and, child. Fuck,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 48:06

Child's pose is hard for me cause my knees are hurty.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 48:09

Ah, it was so good. That was a good stretch. And very

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 48:12

feels good. I like that one. Cat

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 48:14

that's

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 48:15

You do a couple cat cows,

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 48:17

I feel like I'm always doing this wrong, nah, corpse pose, nailed it,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 48:21

You're like, finally, one I can do. all Yes. So don't believe everything you think is about letting go of all of these thoughts and taking a more mindful approach. and again, everything kind of ties back to, what we talked about in the subtle art of not giving a fuck.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 48:40

which I feel like I need to read again already.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 48:42

we'll revisit it on our anniversary.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 48:46

I feel like I need to read ever, like I just need my, and my brain doesn't hold shit like yours does. Like you remember shit that you read. Like I remember little bits and pieces and I know it was a great book, but I already forget like so much of it. Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 49:01

think about lining up your values.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 49:03

Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 49:04

And one of your values is I don't thought spiral. I don't thought spiral. I don't convince myself I have an eating disorder when I don't have an eating disorder.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 49:15

But you might have a DNA disorder.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 49:17

I might. I'm talking to the therapist about it. So I think being able, here's the thing. Like I thought a lot about it after last week because I was upset about it and very anxious after we hung up the phone. I'm like, okay. I don't like this at all. but giving that anxiety around gaining some of the weight back, a name and talking about it with somebody that wasn't just me really helped. Do you know what I mean? looking at the scale and being like, you're not really my enemy. My enemy is me being afraid of that all by myself. Yeah. And being able to talk to you and, literally the 30 people that listen to this about it was horrifying. And I really didn't want to share that episode last week. really.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 50:06

so proud of you,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 50:07

I was like, I don't, this is

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 50:09

but we also got some feedback from my friend Heather, who's a nurse about some of your medication. So there's good things that have come out of it. And Heather loves our podcast too. We should have probably said,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 50:21

Yeah, Heather.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 50:23

Heather a little shout out. But, so that uncovered some stuff to think about as well. And I'm super proud of you that you still put it out there because I, it's difficult to that scary shit. Like for me, it's super easy to say, Hey, you might have an eating disorder. Cause I don't have an eating disorder.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 50:40

Thank you. I appreciate the fact, but I don't know if I have any eating disorder, but being able to talk about it is the trick like that, I think is what takes it out of being an eating disorder and being something else that I can deal with.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 50:56

And that's, yeah, that's the big thing. Like maybe.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 50:59

Maybe it's my meds.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 51:00

maybe, things were going in a bad direction, but then we talked about it and got it out and you feel better, but you also have a plan to make sure that it doesn't end up that way.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 51:10

yeah, exactly.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 51:12

there's, I think that's a big part of it too. At least I think so.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 51:18

I think that's a huge part of what you and I are trying to do. don't be ashamed. yeah, developing an eating disorder after I lose 80 pounds would be a terrible thing. that would be, there's a part of me that said, yeah, you deserve it because you cheated when you lost those 80

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 51:34

Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 51:35

That, no, I don't, of course I don't deserve an eating disorder. Why would I? So that being able to talk about it, give it a name and come up with, a plan to talk to the therapist about it, having Heather text me and be like, Hey, or text you. And then me and be like, Hey, it might be our meds, like being able to look at that too. And those kinds of things are conversations that we wouldn't have had six years ago. Those are conversations, there's no way in hell I would have said it out loud first off. I would have said it to you and recorded it and there's no way in hell I ever would have put it out on the internets six years ago. No way. I would have kept that shit bottled up inside and let it eat me alive. Literally.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 52:23

You would have definitely put it in one of those vacuum sealed bags. Yeah.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 52:27

I wouldn't. Packaged it up very nicely. I might've even painted the box. I would have spent a lot of time with that box. I would have held it. I would have pet it. I would have called it George.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 52:40

But it named it for sure. I'm very glad that you didn't, and I'm very glad that you talked about it. And that's what we often talk about, we're reading these books and we're trying to improve ourselves. And what I meant to say was we often say that we continue to do it just because one person we hear from here and there, and we talk about other people who are listening, that we've, we help every once in a while. But. It's more like we forget about just the two of us sometimes too. So I feel like we have to remember that, that we're here

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 53:13

Right.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 53:14

and that's why we started this because we have our own fucking issues that we need to deal with. And we're going to have more issues. We're going to deal with issues and then we're going to come up and this is just the way it's going to be because

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 53:24

Cause you never stop.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 53:25

Cause it never stops and that's okay because we have each other to talk to. We have our 30 listeners to talk to. and we

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 53:33

Which is better than the 25

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 53:35

to

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that we had two weeks ago. We picked up five someplace.

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the listeners, I know we have in the past, we've had, some people, right into us at one that's coming to mind is, Emily, who was, out on the West coast who gave us her story, which was extremely, It had to be incredibly hard for her just to write all of that stuff down. But I hope, I really hope her just doing that was helpful. and so we're here for that too. You can send us all your stories and we'll read them to the world. No, I'm just kidding. We're not going to read anything to the world. but it's really. And these are things we need to share with other people that

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right.

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we need the help to, and that it's a huge deal. So I'm really proud of you for doing that.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 54:22

Thanks. Thanks. Yeah, I film, I feel much better about my weight. Now than I have in about three months. Because I think you and I have been talking about it and we put it, we've put it in here and I've cut it out every single time because it felt icky. Icky. And yeah, being able to talk about it for what it really was like, that was just. anxiety about, about how I felt about it and being able to give it a name and being like, here it is, here's this thing I'm really afraid of. It's not, I'm not angry or upset or I'm anxious about this.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 54:58

It's scary.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 55:00

Yeah, that is terrifying. yay. So yay us. We're awesome. I'm amazing and not going to, try to wiggle out of talking to my therapist about it just because I feel better. I think it's still something that we need to work through.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 55:15

Yes. There's

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I'm not, at least I'm not really

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that too.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 55:20

Yeah. there's still a, there's a small box that still needs to be unpacked. but I'm not really afraid of that box anymore. if that makes sense. all right, box, bring it on. Fair. All right. I'm tired. Next week.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 55:33

What do we want to read? Like how much do you need me to read? Because I know that you, I'm stepping away from my microphone to grab my 10

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you just put your titties right in the camera though.

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They're not that big anymore so it's okay. And they're covered with a shirt and a bra.

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layers of clothes between this is the episode where your mom finally calls it and says, we're not allowed to do this anymore.

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and gross and now, okay, so you've already read the book.

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That's why we don't have an only fans page. That's podcast.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 56:04

and I'm not showing my feet, it depends on how much you're going to pay me. Do you want to see some unpedicured feet? I got them. I got them. I'm taking offers.

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don't send us, don't email us,

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Seriously, I'll take pictures of my feet and send them to you guys.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 56:19

stop saying it,

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Listen, I could use an extra buck. I really want my eyelashes back. Look how different I look without them. It's terrible. I'm hideous. I'm hideous.

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you're so pretty,

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hideous without my

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I'm a monster, what are we reading, how much can you commit to? A chapter.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 56:41

I'm just trying to think like what's going on because Noah and I just talked about this like planning things because there's just a lot going on right now. And there was, when we sat down to talk earlier, there was a kind of moment like, There's just a lot. And so we were talking about like planning for our weeks better to make sure that we're better prepared. AKA, I don't know why I said AKA. Owen

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all of this out.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 57:09

Okay, nevermind. What do you, how much do you want me to read?

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 57:13

I was going to say, why don't, since I have less going on, why don't I read the first couple of chapters again and summarize them for you and then get your reaction?

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 57:22

because I want to read it. So I will,

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 57:25

Do a chapter. We'll do a chapter. What the hell?

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 57:28

yeah, let's start with a chapter. And, Go from there. And maybe I'll read more than that, but I'm going to commit to one chapter. And if I read more than that, fantastic.

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That sounds perfect.

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I'd like that plan. I like it.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 57:41

All right. I'm going to stop recording. so I love you.

riverside_sarah_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0050 57:46

Love you. Bye.

riverside_chris_raw-synced-video-cfr_gaster_girls's stud_0051 57:47

Love you, bye. Why isn't it stopping?